This is me whining again. Poor me.
There. Now that I've established the general tone of this blog entry, I feel liberated enough to vent freely.
I can't tell if I've never been a good conversationalist or if I've simply lost any ability I might have ever had to command anyone's attention. Or maybe I don't exude any sense of urgency .... ever ..... causing the entire world to feel free to interrupt my conversations - sometimes as I am in a sentence mid-stream. I'm obviously doing something wrong. What.......? I don't know.
Lately I seem to also be incapable of even getting to the point where I'm even having the desired discussion in the first place. So, in a weird sort of way, that might be a good thing. The world at large can't disrupt an interchange that never even got started in the first place. A good example would be Amanda who was home for 7 days. I figured out that I had her undivided attention for less than one hour the entire time she was home. Her boyfriend came to town with her. Don't get me wrong - he is a great kid and I guess I should be happy that they've been together for over a year and still talk each other's ear off. And he likes to talk as much as she does. It is a long time - more than 2 months - before I will see her again. I need to focus on the fact that we managed to show our guest a good time during the last week in February in Buffalo. Not a small accomplishment.
And then today after Mass, I said to Bill "can we just go to Tim Horton's for coffee and sit and talk?". He was very agreeable, but I guess he thought I meant "I can sit quietly and listen to him talk to people from our church.". Sigh...... I guess even though my husband and I are similar in our lack of the ability to call attention to ourselves, he tries to compensate by being overly chatty with anyone and everyone. Not I. I sometimes think I get why people with mental conditions might start talking to themselves a lot. You have a ready audience at your beck and call and you always have the listener's undivided attention. The feedback isn't very useful, though. Everything has a drawback. Guess I'll have to do something about that!